My love for Photography

The memories

Early 2000’s I’m sure lots of people owned cameras, because it was better than taking pictures from a flip phone. My mom loved taking pictures. That she even had an album. I was only like seven when I wanted to own a camera. I remember back then that for every field trip, I had to have a camera. So I did. I wanted to capture the fun memories and have them saved in my album. That’s how it started. As a kid, I knew that I loved taking pictures, but never thought of it as a career. I only took pictures because it made me happy, still does to this day.

It is art

I found out about photoshop in 2010. It amazed me how images could be edited like that. Every little edit amazed me. That I even wanted to photoshop images of my own. Then I did in 2014. I never had an idea of what kind of editing I wanted to do, I just let my hands do the magic. It got to the point where I started getting creative with my images. Most of my images were…..unreal. I was satisfied with the results. And receiving comments like “How did you do that?!” or “That’s so cool!” made me want to keep going, and do better. Even to this day, I use photoshop.

Self-expression

Having control of a camera means that I get to choose what I take a picture of, it means that I pick the angles, the lighting, close-ups, etc. And once it’s done, I’m in control of the editing. Each image does have a story behind it. That does not necessarily mean that the meaning is deep, but there’s something to it. Or if I choose to create a story to an edited image, I can! Photography is so much more than a click of a button, it is a form of art. And each image is different, taken from a different person.

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Being in Graphic Arts and Design

First time

I decided to start college as early as possible because I was excited about being in the Graphic Arts and Design class. I did start my classes at Keiser towards the end of June, but didn’t start my major course until August. Still, that’s an early start. I was excited yet nervous. I came into class early that day, there was only three people in there. If I remember clearly they go by the names of Karlie, Rob, and Marcus. Just three individuals sitting around one computer watching anime videos. I did not approach them for I was shy, but they were kind enough to introduce themselves. I sat in front of a computer, then a few minutes later, a girl, similar to myself walked in. Her name was Hannah, she sat next to me we talked, and another girl, Macayla came in. The three of us clicked. And managed to get along so well. Those two were the one of the reasons why I enjoyed my first month, Intro to Graphic Arts.

As the months pass

One thing that I found different was how the course worked. There were two professors, Mr. Williams and Ms. Percy, and every month there were new students added. I tried to figure out how everyone’s scheduled worked, but everyone was different. There was no particular order of how you had to take the courses. I am just satisfied with my scheduling. As the months passed I became more and more comfortable with people. And made more friends. What I realized is that each individual I befriended was different from one another. Which I’m perfectly fine with. I love weird. Everyone is even from different age groups. What sucked as time passed, is that you watch people come and go. My friend Hannah being an example, is already gone. I’ll be leaving shortly as well. I wish the course lasted a bit longer, I want to continue learning. Even though I’ve been stressed out, I still love this class. The professors make learning fun, and every day we share laughs.

What to do

I am in this course because I am still unsure of what I desire as a career choice. Every month is something new. That’s why I’m here, to figure out what interests me the most. I love photography! Most of us do here. But what will happen after I’m done with the course? I own a camera, I want to continue building my portfolio. And I’ll definitely go after my bachelor’s degree once I’m done with Keiser. It’s hard to plan ahead. I’ll be looking for internships or paying jobs relating to my field. I’m still figuring myself out. But at least I have some ideas in mind.

Friendships

Elementary years

My elementary years were pretty nice when it came to friends. I never questioned who I talked to. Even though I was a shy kid, I still had friends at the time. During those times, people didn’t group themselves, we talked to whoever. Even after school, I hung out with whoever. Kids just get along well so easily. Girls and boys, gender wasn’t a big deal. Unfortunately, friendships change as you get older. A year before entering middle school, I hung out with mainly boys. It wasn’t because I got attention from them, in fact I wasn’t even called pretty by them, but because of our interests. I remember that back then we would collect wrestling magazines and then trade after we were done with ours. Living at an apartment meant that I had plenty of neighbors. My friends and I would take turns going to each others’ homes to play video games or even play four-square. I felt more like myself with the boys I hung out with. I was childish, yet so were they. But the time came where I had to move out of Texas and move to Florida. I had to lose my friends.

Middle school friendships

In middle school, the majority of my friends were female. Of course, since I’m one myself, I guess it makes sense. If I were to hang out with boys, I’d be judged. Not only that, it’s middle school, kids change. I was even a part of what you would call a “squad” and out of the eight girls, I was what you called a “good girl.” It was hard for me to ever be harsh to anyone, then again, I never wanted to hurt someone. I kept things in. I was not good with boys either, if anything I didn’t even liked being approached by them. It got to the point where I even questioned my sexuality, but turns out that I just didn’t like receiving such attention. Then again, out of my friends, I received the less attention well because I was just awkward and not even that attractive. Out of school, it was rare to hang out with most of these girls. A good five of them lived in the same neighborhood. And I lived a good ten minutes away, which doesn’t seem far now since i’m older. I did feel left out though. Not just distance wise, but in general. Back then, everyone had their group of friends. I hung out with well….. my hispanic friends. And like I mentioned, part of me felt left out. They didn’t mistreat me, but I was the only one who was pale. I was the only one who would obsess over rock bands. I was the only one who didn’t like make-up. I was the only one who never had a boyfriend. I was the only one who never had the guts to approach others, I was a shy kid. I didn’t think that at the time, I could ever make new friends. It got to the point where problems occurred. I wasn’t involved in the drama, I don’t even remember the reason for the beefing  either. All I remember is that two of those girls, well they had problems. If I remember correctly, the reason was well stupid and immature. That’s besides the point, the remaining girls even chose sides. I did not, I talked to both sides. I did not talk crap, but I did listen. I should’ve done more than just listened. The drama continued on until our eighth grade year came to an end. And thus, the friendships ended.

Highschool

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Oh how things have changed when I finally started high school. The summer before entering the ninth grade, I was discovering myself. I’m still in the process. That’s why I felt like a new person Not because of a new hair cut or clothes, but my mindset. I was very opinionated. I no longer kept thoughts in, whether it was harsh, I’d let out the things on my mind. This was not because I was intentionally trying to be mean, no… I was still as considerate as ever. I just didn’t want to be a pushover. Old friends did not like that, some of these old friends would even talk shit behind my back. I was not hurt, just disappointed. I made plenty of new friends in high school. Different genders, different ages, different race and ethnicity. People liked me. I became very sociable, but it wasn’t forced. I was still immature, but at the same time, part of me was becoming mature. I didn’t change for anyone, I changed for myself. I started showing off my artistic side, my weird side, friendly side, yet also my bitchy side. I made myself stand out in a good way. I even won two superlatives for being the most unique and most artistic out of all my classmates. I wasn’t even ashamed of the image I was displaying, I felt happy with who I am. And met countless people along the way. As in for old friends, the good ones were still a part of my life. You just need to talk things out and accept others for who they are.

College

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Of course friendships don’t last forever. I dealt with a situation that has changed my attitude to push people away. It’s like I didn’t have the energy to talk to people once I started college. I have friends, just not as much. It gets to the point where I even miss certain individuals from time to time. I lost people who I cherished and never thought would be out of my life. That is why I am grateful for who currently is in my life. I am still making new friends, I even managed to meet other weirdos because of my major. But as time passes, everything continues to change. Including myself.

 

Dreamweaver vs TextEdit

Think of it like this, TextEdit is your dad who tries to be hip, but Dreamweaver is the cool uncle. Dreamweaver has a completely different design compared to TextEdit, but they both have similar functions. At first I thought TextEdit was simple, but it’s very hard to get into it when you want to design. That’s why I now currently prefer Dreamweaver because it makes designing more useful.

One of my favorite things about Dreamweaver is using CSS, it helps keep the info in the source code more organized. On TextEdit, you’re basically going to put the design and info all in the same code area. Dreamweaver helps you keep them apart, but in link. Before using CSS, my first assumption was that it would be more difficult because I had no idea where the code would be linked. But turns out that didn’t matter much.

One of my favorite things to use of Dreamweaver is the CSS panel. It made everything so much easier!! Messing around in the properties areas allowed me to see what I would like to add on my page. It helped me visually. I’m not too familiar with pixels or percentages or whatever, so typing random numbers did help out with how I positioned my work. I am a designer, I WANT to see how my design changes while I’m working on it. And Dreamweaver allowed me to see that happened, making it a more useful tool for me instead of TextEdit.

Using Text Edit

I always believed that the first step for creating a website was to start off with the design for your pages. I had no idea that TextEdit existed. So for me to find out that you start off with plain simple text on a blank screen was pretty surprising to me. I always imagined that web designers used fancier, advanced looking programs to create webpages. TextEdit……….. is more boring than Microsoft Word.

Just because the design of this program, that is if it’s considered a design, is boring, does not make it useless. If anything it made learning easier for me. Seeing Mr. Williams type out the information on his file, helped out the class get a better understanding. It was simple.

Practicing on my own wasn’t too bad either, I had a little fun getting to know the program. Seeing the results of my work opened up in a browser was satisfying. My work wasn’t fancy, but adding images and color was better than text on a blank page. You can’t expect to create a professional looking webpage in one day, so the outcome of my work did not disappoint.

New things along the way

Dumb Assumptions.

For the third week of this course, we are learning how to animate. Knowing about this ahead of time, I was worried that it would be difficult to learn. Mr. Williams, like always, showed us the basics of animation before we could start learning on our own. After his lecture, I sat in front of the computer not knowing what to do. I then created a shape, and played around with the timeline on the bottom of the screen. I managed to get simple movements, but wanted to learn how to do more. Mr. Williams showed me how to add key frames and edit them in the timeline found in the window. After seeing him create motions up close, I had a better understanding on how to work in the timeline.

 

Slowly getting there

I spent the remaining of the day creating different animations. By practicing I was able to get a better understanding on how the time is important. I also learned how to change the color, rotate an object, and change the size. I do not have a clear understanding on how those things exactly work, but being able to learn this in one day makes me happy. Unlike the previous weeks, 3D has somewhat grown on me. Since I have a good understanding of what I’ll be dealing with, I have an idea on what type of animation to add to my scene. There’s still more to learn, and I look forward to what Mr. Williams has to share. I am just glad that my work is slowly getting better, and with after the animation is added, I know that I will be satisfied with my completed project.

Ideas at the last minute

First troubles

I’ve never created a 3D object before on a computer until 2 weeks ago. At first, I was excited, but was confused on how to use Cinema 4d lite. My first mistake was that I wanted to model a human. I could’ve gotten creative, and create my own unique character, but nothing came to mind at the time. Nothing but frustration built during the first day, because my figure did not look close to a human. I gave up and went for something more simple, an egg. I was disappointed with my last minute decision that day.

 

My Character

The next day at class, I practiced perfecting the egg shape. This helped me get a better understanding on how to work with deformers. Even though an egg is a simple creation, I did struggle a bit to give him the remaining body parts. The eyes were the most complicated. Luckily for me, I was able to create a decent looking Egg Man, but I was yet not satisfied.

 

Story

The next step after creating a model, we had to create a scene. At first I had nothing in mind. All I really did was add a sky and a landscape. Because I was still unsure about what I wanted, I was practicing creating backgrounds. After adding texture to the landscape, it hit me. The character was already an original because it didn’t exist anywhere else, so why not create it’s own story? I added more eggs to the scene, and made my Egg man more superior. By doing that, I decided to create a scene where he was being abducted. But why was he abducted? Because him and the remaining eggs are from Planet egg, and the time finally came where humans needed eggs. It doesn’t have to make sense, but anything can happen in the 3D realm.

Is 3D for me?

Two Courses

I have a great interest in art, that is why I decided to take two different art courses during my freshmen year. Going into high school allowed me to have a variety of courses to choose from. Yet, I decided to stick to one subject. I took Draw/Paint and 3D art. Both classes were fun and I met interesting people, but the amount of effort I put into the work differed. I grew up drawing, that is why I would always challenge myself in my Draw/Paint course hoping to improve my skills. If I felt like I didn’t get enough finished in class, I would continue drawing during my free time. I could have chosen a simple drawing to get my work done with, but I don’t like simple drawings. Every detail had to be perfect for me, and I would draw for extra hours to create a great piece. In my 3D class, I am not proud to admit that I slacked off. At first, I thought that maybe it was because of the people around me, but the thing about me is that I was sociable in both classes. Looking back now, the assignments were not difficult, if anything they were more simple compared to the other class. 3D was just not for me. I did enjoy the work, but I did not challenge myself as much. Is that because it was my first time?

 

Going back

I decided to go back into a 3D course during my senior year, because that particular course was the only art course that fitted in my schedule. I was supposed to be in AP 3D art, but I chickened out. I did enjoy it a lot more this time, because we got to work with clay more. I can’t help but also notice that my attitude towards the course changed. I tried, and I can see why I didn’t try as much during my first time. Creating a 3D object is difficult! Also, it is very time consuming. I loved messing around with clay, but I did not have plenty of time to work on my project. Only thirty minutes were used for constructing, that’s not enough time! The extra twenty minutes were spent on creating ideas on how things can work together and cleaning.  Towards the end of the year, my laid back teacher gave us the option to create our own sculptures. That’s when my creativity came in handy. I created more abstract sculptures that you wouldn’t see in nature. This helped put my mind at ease because I didn’t stress about creating replicas. I enjoy creating my own work, that is why I always preferred drawing over sculpting.

 

3D Modeling today

Months after graduating and being a student at Keiser, I am finally taking another 3D course. Only this time it’s on the computer. Yes, I was excited, but the first week was hard because it’s a new software. Then again, I can’t expect everything to be easy. Our first assignment was to create our own character. Now, what I regret was that I decided to create a human. I spent hours trying to find ways on how my figure can look close to an actual person, when I could’ve gotten creative instead and create my own unrealistic character. I changed my decision and went for something “simple” and Egg man. Silly me thought that it would be easy, but it was not. But I stuck with the character this time, and did what I could to create a decent character. After two more days of working on it, I was able to add more to my character and even create a weird story for him. What makes me happy about all this now is that it is completely original. If I thought about the idea in the first place, I would’ve had time to upgrade things a bit. My mistake made me realize that the reason I never got into 3D at first is because I’m used to drawing humans. I’m only good at drawing them… Yet, when it comes to creating objects in 3D, I’m better off creating something that isn’t found in nature. Now that I am aware of that, I am hoping to make the time to create more unrealistic 3D objects and improve my skills.

 

The Beginning

First Dream

If you were to ask me what my dream job was back then during my elementary years, I would respond with “veterinarian.” Did I give such a response because I loved MY pets? As time passed by, I came to the realization that I was not much of an animal person. I hated the responsibilities of being a pet owner, and I did not love many animals. Then again of course, people are unsure of what careers they want to pursue when they are younger, and are in the stage of gaining new interests. How did I first gain an interest in art? Well it all started when I saw scrolling through YouTube, and came across an anime show called Naruto.

Ninjas caught my heart960

I’ve known about the show months before I decided to give it a try. That is why I am disappointed to say that I only gave it a chance because of boredom. Funny how I was able to quickly become interested in this anime about ninjas. So even to now, I’ve been hooked on the show for over eight years. I loved that the show consists of numerous characters with their own distinct personalities and backgrounds. Also, compared to the previous “cartoons” that I’ve watched, I loved the design of this show. And for the first time, I felt like I was watching a cartoon with a real plot. I became so obsessed that I wanted to create my own characters. So I did.

And the drawing begins

It was during my seventh grade year where I would remember coming home from school and went straight to drawing. I created my own characters, but because of my love for Naruto, I made them into ninjas.  I was young, and my dream was basically to create my own show. The first character I created was Kimiko. She was the main protagonist, and I thought of her of someone I wished to be. I then created eight more characters around the same age group. Each of them looked different from one another, and I gave them different personalities. Eventually, I got bored of only having nine characters. At the time, my drawing skills have improved, which is why I upgraded their appearances. My goal before my eight grade year was over, was to complete drawing ALL the characters. I managed to create over thirty more characters. I even created villains as well. The most fun about this, was giving them personalities. Also, I enjoyed giving each character their own look.

Realization

I always thought my reality was dull. I felt happiest when I was drawing out characters. I was creating a world where I wish that I could’ve been a part of. And I had favoritism over Kimiko because I wanted to be a hero like her. Unfortunately, the only reality I can get from this is to actually work hard to make my dream show real.